The Super Bowl party was fun. I had no clue what teams were even playing and wasn't even interested enough to root for one of them, but I did get a laugh out of my sister hootin' and hollering every time the Saints scored to rub it in my uncles face. We had lots of yummy food. The commercials didn't impress me much, but I thought the LOST spoof one featuring Bud Light (I think) and the Doritos ones were funny. My sister made the yummiest chocolate chip bars that I had to force myself to walk away from after eating four. LOL Me dad, Lonnie and Jr played cards most of the night. I lost big time, but had fun playing.

Jonesy got in when my older sister was leaving and my God, the dog had such bad gas he nearly stunk me, dad and Lonnie out of the house! It was horrible! And then Laney had a diaper that reeked up the entire dining room. We had such a good laugh over that because she had been changed not twenty minutes before.

We're supposed to possibly get six to eight more inches of snow tomorrow. I'm getting sick of the cold and snow, even if it is pretty. Hopefully we don't get another big storm.

My aunt Ida Mae's burial was yesterday in Kentucky. We went down there and back in one day. Nine hours in a car is not my idea of fun and I was much more restless than I usually am. Plus Amelia was soooo hyper and honestly I didn't know how much more I could take. All I wanted to do was sleep for a little bit, but that wasn't happening with her in the car, plus I couldn't get comfortable.

It was a bittersweet day. It was hard saying goodbye, but wonderful to see so much of my family. We all went out to eat after-wards at this wonderful little restaurant. I love being with my family and I love even more that I have such a big family. My cousin Sharon is one of my favorite people in the world. Such a lovely woman. She's funny, supportive and just an all around good person. I found out that much of my family is on Facebook and was delighted to find over half of them had friended me yesterday and today. It's such a good way to stay connected.

I'm almost certain that dad and I will be moving into my aunts house. I have mixed feelings about it. I never was all that good with major change and moving from the house I've lived in all my life will be hard. Though I'm doing better with everything than I was yesterday. I talked to Jenn for a long time and that helped. I slept for thirteen hours last night and I swear I could have slept longer. I've been so stressed and drained the last week. I was averaging about four or five hours of sleep a night.

Dad and I went on a cleaning jag in the kitchen today. We cleaned out the shelves, washed dishes and threw away what we no longer need or use. I need to do that to my room in the worst way. Maybe I'll start that this weekend. Looked on the Net for jobs today, but didn't find much. Will continue to look.

Talked with several members of my family on Facebook today. I love them all so much and wish we didn't live so far apart. We're going to have two family reunions this summer - one in Kentucky and one here in Ohio.

Merry Christmas everyone! Wishing you a day of love, laughter and fun that lasts into the new year. Love ya!

In case you were wondering......

Cleveland is a GO motherfuckers!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO! Here I come 30 Seconds To Mars!!! Can't wait!!

I know this is short, short notice, but I was wondering if anyone out there could give me a ride to the 30 Seconds To Mars show at the House Of Blues in Cleveland on Saturday 12/19. My ride canceled on me at the last minute and I'm not happy about it, but I'm doing my best to see if I can get a ride from someone else.

I need a ride from the Oxford/Cincinnati area and will pay for gas. Also, I do have an extra ticket that I would give free to anyone who gave me a ride. If you can help me out or point me in the direction of someone who can I'd appreciate it. Thanks!

Happy Thanksgiving! Have a great day with family and friends.

The weather this week has been absolutely beautiful. You can't beat 70 degree weather in November. Today was a little cooler at 61 and breezy, but still sunny and just lovely. I took a short walk enjoying it all while I can. It will be in the 30's before I know it.

Sunday was my niece Abby's 11th birthday. We had a nice family get together at my sisters. We grilled out, had cake and ice cream and played Corn Hole and Goofy Golf. Not surprisingly my partner and I lost every game of Corn Hole. I never said I was good! =P I got Abby a bunch of craft stuff and she absolutely loved it. As soon as she opened my gift she looked at my sister and said, "now I can scrapbook and craft with you mom!" The M&M socks were a big hit too.

Later that night we had a bonfire and all sat around talking. I love doing that. A cool chill in the air, a nice fire and good conversation. It was a great day. My uncle Lonnie came over to the house after we left. Me, him and dad played Mexican Domino's and Hearts. I was the big winner in Mexican Domino's, but I'm not nearly as good at cards. We hadn't played in forever though and I had so much fun.

When did it become such a bad thing to give your opinion? Obviously there will be times it differs from others, but we all have the right to our opinions and to voice them.

So I was sitting at the dining room table today visiting with my older sister and two nieces. We'd been talking and all that and I saw part of this ticket stub by her purse. I picked it up and asked her what the ticket was from and she said she had no idea that it wasn't hers. So I pointed out that it had been sitting beside her purse. Again, she said it wasn't hers. Then it hit me. OMG...it was my ticket for 30 Seconds to Mars concert in December. It had to be. I frantically started searching the pile of mail my dad had just said was garbage and I could throw away. Sure enough there they were all ripped up. I told my dad what they were and he said he didn't know, that he thought they were junk mail. My heart sank to my stomach as I tried to piece together the bits, but one piece was missing. I just couldn't believe it. I think I was in such shock that I couldn't cry. Instead I laughed. This shit only happens to me.

What makes this all even stranger is that I've gotten the mail for at least the last three or four days and nothing has come for me except ad campaign fliers for the election. I went back through all the "junk" mail and could find no envelope that the tickets could have possibly come in. None. What's even weirder is that I just cleaned the dining room table off yesterday and there was nothing on it for me. How odd is that? It's like the tickets just magically appeared out of nowhere.

Anyway, I called TicketMaster and they told me they can't reprint and send, so I have to take my order number, credit card and photo ID to pick them up at the Will call booth the day of the concert. I'm not happy about that. I know I should just be thankful I didn't have to buy again or some shit, but blah. FML.

Last Saturday we had the annual bonfire/pumpkin fest at my sisters. It was a beautiful day, but so cold. We arrived around 3:30 and slowly people were trickling in. This year my sister invited some people from church and some friends. In all there were over 50 people there. A big difference from the crowd of about 22 we had last year. It was huge! I didn't even know some of them. lol But we had fun. I saw some people I hadn't seen in years, so it was nice to catch up. Around five we started working on our pumpkins. I decided to go with an easier design this year. I didn't want to be sitting there for two and half hours or more working on the thing. As it turns out it took me well over an hour even for a simpler one. I was happy with how it turned out and liked it.

We ate around seven and everyone was finishing up their pumpkins and just visiting and such. Around nine we had the official judging of the pumpkins. My dad, uncle Lonnie and brother in law Bob were the judges. There ended up being a four way tie for first place, so those four pumpkins were sat together and they voted again. This time there was a two way tie. haha So those two won first place and got prizes. Hopefully my sister will have pictures of everything online so I can share them. I didn't place at all this year with my pumpkin, but that's okay. There's always next year! ;)

Here's the pumpkin I made

( trick or treat )

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! HAVE A SPOOKTACULAR DAY! MAY YOU HAVE MORE TREATS THAN TRICKS!

Have ticket for the December 30 Seconds to Mars show!! Woohoo!!

Short blurb and pictures from the 'Kings and Queens' video shoot.

Jared Leto Matches Bike to Outfit

I believe- That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I believe- That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I believe- That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I believe- That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
( into the night, desperate and broken )

Yesterday I went over to my cousins. It was me, her, her mom and our friend Faye. We made homemade pizzas. I don't think I've done that since I was little. Yeah, we made a mess, but had lots of fun. Faye kept trying to add my mushrooms to my pizza because she knows I hate them. lol So I tried to return the favor by putting peppers on hers because she hates them. hehe After the pizzas were all done we watched a couple movies. The first we watched was 'Walk The Line'. If you haven't seen this one I'd highly recommend you check it out. Even if you're not a Johnny Cash/country music fan. A great movie and Joaquin Phoenix and Reese Witherspoon are amazing in it. The second movie we watched was 'Bridget Jones: The Edge Of Reason'. I love, love, love Bridget Jones's Diary, but I was disappointed by the second movie. I've read the books and frankly the second movie just didn't live up to my expectations at all. I thought it was slow moving and kinda boring with a few good laughs sprinkled in here and there. Bummer.

Today well, it didn't start off so well. I went up to the post office to talk to them about how they've been delivering packages. They've been sitting them in the yard. The yard! Where anyone could take them or they could get rained on. What the hell? The last one was sat by my front car bumper. How lazy is the postal worker when it would have taken them maybe three more steps to get to the porch and leave it there?!! What pisses me off even more is it was my dads new blood sugar meter. What if it would have rained and soaked the box? I mean really, if you're too lazy to put a package on the porch, then put a slip in the mail box saying we have mail to collect at the post office. I told this to the worker I was talking with and he was a complete jerk. It's like he was trying to argue with me and of course he was defending the postal carriers. I was so pissed! I finally told him I want to lodge a formal complaint and filled out the paper work to do so. Don't think he was happy, but neither was I.

I also told him about two packages shipped within the US that I haven't received. One was shipped about a month ago and the other three weeks ago. Both packages are from the same person and I've never had trouble getting mail from this person before. I was told they can't do anything about that if there was no tracking number on it and since it didn't come from their post office. Still, that didn't stop me from adding it to my complaint. You'd think with as much business as I give these people they'd be more courteous. I am so not happy with that place. I wish there was another post office around here.

Went to the store also to do some shopping. I'm trying to find pumpkins for the bonfire/pumpkin carving Fest next weekend at my sisters, but I'm not paying $5 for a medium sized pumpkin. Almost bought the newest NickelBack CD, but decided to wait. Came home and had some hot chocolate. Perfect weather for that and cookies. :)

I'm so tired today I think I could literally fall asleep in this chair. Not to mention my cramps are rearing their ugly head yet again and I want to rip my damn uterus out. I have no idea why cramps are so damn bad this month, but I've had enough of this.

I woke up around 11 this morning and made breakfast, then showered. My dad had another doctors appointment with his urologist this afternoon. Yesterdays appointment didn't go quite as expected. He/I forgot his paper work at home from when he was in the hospital, so his urologist didn't feel he could take the cath out without knowing that info. I felt so stupid for not thinking about taking that paper work in and I think my dad was a bit disappointed at not having that darn cath removed. His doctor did a general check over on my dad and that seemed okay. His doctor told him he could remove the cath tomorrow morning at home and then drink lots of fluids to see if he can go on his own.

So this morning my dad took his cath out and drank tons of water and was able to go to the bathroom. Yay! We went back to t urologist this afternoon and he checked his levels and everything and said things looked okay. He gave a prescription for more Flomax (a prostate medication) and he's to make a follow up appointment in six months. I'm so glad things are going good. I was really afraid they wouldn't, but now I can relax a little.

Oh my God...I thought they'd never leave. I probably shouldn't have been sitting there wishing my sister and her kids would fucking leave, but I was. Not that I was pissed at her, but they stayed for five hours. Amelia was super wound up the last two hours and Delaney kept crying. I was going nuts. I had to leave the room and just get away for a few. I went upstairs, smoked a cigarette and listened to Kings and Queens. I so didn't want to go back downstairs.

Normally, I'm not wishing they'd get the hell out when they visit, but today has not been so good. I couldn't sleep last night and only got about two and half hours of sleep, plus I started my period this morning and the cramps are killing me. So I'm cranky, crampy and tired. Then my sister, while not jumping on me, used that tone a mother would with a child when she saw that I hadn't recorded dad's blood sugar level for last night. Yes, I forgot, so fucking sue me. I forgot ONE time. That made my mood worse. Then she starts cooking dinner at 3:00. o.O I'm not kidding. She started cooking dinner for my dad and I. Usually we don't eat until later in the evening. So, I'm sitting there thinking what the hell has possessed her to start cooking that early? I felt like she was saying some roundabout way that I wouldn't cook which is total bullshit. I've been cooking twice a day for over a week now. Again, that made me more cranky.

Just ugh. So glad they're gone. I would nap, but then I know I'd sleep straight through til like two or three AM. Blah.

This is seriously shaping up to not be my day. I went out to feed the cats and dog. Their food is kept on the back patio and from there I go out the door to feed them. The cats always start clammering at the door when they hear me getting the food. Well, today as I went out the patio door, I accidentally stepped on one of the cats. Said cat was not happy and squeeled at me and either clawed or bit me on my toe. I think it must have clawed me because when I looked at it looked like a claw mark and it hurt like a mother fucker. I went inside and washed it and put something on it. It still hurts a little. From now on I will not be going out the patio door to feed them.

Then there's dinner, which I royally screwed up. I made round steaks, mixed vegetables (my dad's favorite), creamed corn and biscuits. Well, I put the temp on the mixed vegetables too high and nearly ruined them. I managed to salvage them mostly. Then when I took the steaks out of the oven I sat them on top of the oven, so I could put the biscuits in. What I failed to realize was that I had left the burner on that I'd been cooking the mixed vegetables on. I think you can guess what happen. The steaks ended up cooking more obviously and getting tough, over-cooked and some where even burnt. I was not happy. I felt like crying and throwing in the towel. Dad said dinner was good, but I think he was just being nice. I'm disappointed in myself. I should have never left the kitchen and should know to check to make sure all burners are turned off.

Sometimes I think most of us fail to stop and appreciate how good we have it. It's so easy to focus on the negative, the bad, the things that go wrong, the past, our mistakes and our wants vs our needs. I put myself right in that category. I have been very selfish at times, self-centered and ungrateful at times. I'm not perfect, but I want to be better. I want those around me to know how much I appreciate them and all they do for me. I want to leave a more positive mark on them and the world.

Today I've been really tired all day long. I made dinner which consisted of meatloaf, peas, corn and tomoatos. It was pretty good. I've eaten dinner at the dining room table with my dad the last three days. I can't even remember the last time I did that. I'm thankful to be spending so much time with him. It makes me feel good and I think it does him good as well.